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Thought you were the one,guess i was wrong


Thought our were the one,Guess I was Wrong

I didn't know what to feel when you shared a photo of your fiancee wearing her engagement ring.

And then my heart starts to hurt and tears fall down my eyes. I ask myself, where do I go from here? What do I do now?

Will I ever get married? Was my instinct wrong all along?
I thought you and I were endgame. All these while, I silently waited.
Who will I love now? Who will get me as you do? who loves the same music as I do and looks at me the way you do?

Am I hallucinating? Was it all I'm my head? Was I wrong about you all these while?
She is cute. Is she all you ever wanted? Oh, it hurts! It hurts, I can't sleep.

Tears won't stop falling down my eyes. 
I feel like a part of me died. What is the point of hustling anymore? What is the point of being a better version of myself?  Why am I trying so hard?

Who can I love again? Who can I love?
God I need your comfort, I don't know how I will get through this. I don't know how to live again.

I am going through a lot in my life. When things don't work out with different guys, I always had hope that he would always be there for me. I never really paid any attention to these other guys because my heart was with him.
Now he is engaged to someone else and I feel like my heart is crushed.

I don't know how I am going to survive this. I don't know if I will ever love again.
Please help me through the night, please help me every day.
When I am dealing with family and work issues.

Please don't let me give up. Please give me hope. Please tell me my instinct is not wrong. If it was wrong, please don't let me give up on myself.

I wish like in 2017 (He called off his engagement), this doesn't work out. But what does that make me? I love him so much I want him to be happy but why not with me?

Some part of me is still hopeful in the farthest future that we will find each other again. But is that not delusion.

Oh, how do I move on? How do I love again? How do I let go of someone for someone else?

How can we still be friends when my heart bleeds seeing you loving someone else.

Will I recover from this? Will I meet someone like you or even better? Will I open my heart again for someone else?

I loved you from the first day I spent time with you and I never stopped.

Distance and time never changed my feelings for you.  You have always lived in my heart. I don't know what life would be like, knowing we won't be together.

You are my soul mate, my best friend, the best kiss I ever had, and the best love I ever had.


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